You are such an idiot. Why do you trust so easily? You should know by now that you can’t trust anyone. But if I can’t trust anyone then I am alone. I reaally don’t want to be alone…but is it worth the dissapointment? The pain? The horrible sinking feeling in your chest? Maybe.
Should have just keept my stupid mouth shut
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT ANYTHING
and that about sums it up.
I feel a strange sensation building in my chest getting more and more real as I realize how I feel and what I truely want but its not what everyone else wants. Anxiety maybe is what I feel. I don’t want to dissapoint but what can I do but think about it and let it ferment in my chest until I have the ability. There are choices I must make and I realize I must only take my own advice if I was to be happy. But I can’t help but worry about what the others would do or say. I just don’t know I don’t know I don’t know.
Sometimes I think
Why why why FUCKING WHY